Harsh Reality Check

Today was hard. Yesterday was hard. I had a harsh reality check - I got called out for missing my lesson plans at one of my placements.

SLOs. Data notebooks. Grade books. Lesson plans. Calendars.

I missed one staff meeting too many - I got the magnifying glass hovering over me shining a hot beam of light under me... the flame is burning at both ends. I am struggling to make up my work.

I understand that all teachers within this school are under the same expectations. I am not surprised but I flew under the radar for 2 years before they decided to look in on my teaching practice. Maybe it was a failure to communicate. They never directly talked to me. Passing greetings but an exhausting pre-service week led to nodding off in a staff meeting led to concerns. It didn't look good on my end to miss two staff meetings in a row.

Attendance is my mission now. You say "jump," I say "how high?" Great.

I need to be on point. Walking on egg shells. I am a ninja. Must excel this year to make things balance out better. Especially with travel in the horizon. Done.

Eustress. I missed Samba but this made me sit down and get some work processed. Good.