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18.8.2007 BARCELONA

Barcelona is interesting. It is a place where you can't trust anyone at all. It has beautiful architecture. It is my birthday today but I would much rather spend it with the people that I care about. I am not fond of the idea of having people  I just met tag along when we all go out. Gaudi is impressioning. I can't believe that people had such genius such a long time ago His works are massive fantasmagorical works that were way ahead of their time. I am not fond of looking out the balcony and having a stranger start talking to me. I just don't think that I am in the mood. I am so tired and I just want to go home. I want to be with the people I care about. I am tired of meeting strangers. I am tired of running into people I don't like and trying to runaway and hide to avoid them. I'm sorry but I love Barcelona. I like being able to talk in another language other than English and understanding. It's nice. However, it's not nice when someone goes out for a walk and has to return in 10 minutes saying that they got robbed. It's also not nice when someone gets on the train and turns around to realize that their wallet has just been grabbed as the doors closed. This town is not safe at all for tourists. The beach is okay. It is sandy therefore messy. I slightly miss the rock beaches of Nice although they hurt more. I really like the shops around here. I finally got sick of gelato. I can't believe the extent of which it takes to complete a massive cathedral. It's like the medieval and gothic churches took centuries to complete. The Sagrada Familia has already taken over 100 years to build and it is no where near complete yet it is so fascinating.

I am so tired and I just don't think that I am in the...


 I am so tired of running into people I don't like and trying to...

12.4.2016 ... I needed to read that and rewrite that journal entry today.
I will go back to Barcelona. I will be in great company. I am the same but I am also different. I look forward to the days where I am sitting under the Spanish sun. I am thankful to all the kind people that invite strangers and allow them to be a part of something different. Yes, it will exhausting. It will be worth it. Does the exhaustion outweight the emptiness? How can I feel complete again? Do I have to be complete? It is like water in a container, closed enviroment. Evaporation. Condensation. Precipitation.

I feel like I am condensating. Everything will be let go soon. I am surrounded by wonderful people.